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  • How to Help a Grieving Child

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    Remember when you found out you lost your baby? Bring up that feeling for a moment. Earth shattering. Can’t breathe. Crumbling to the core. Broken. Heartbroken. Maybe you burst into tears. Maybe you went completely numb. Maybe you were angry at God. Maybe you were in complete denial. Most likely…

  • Post D&C

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    “Have you picked out a good dream?” Yes.  New reality. New truth. Baby Porter. In my arms. Never letting go. Teeth are chattering. Tongue is throbbing. “Try to relax. Do you want another warmed blanket?” Yes. New reality. New truth. Baby Porter. Gone. Forever. Never letting go. My teeth hurt.…

  • Dilation and Curettage

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    The day after we found out Porter was gone, I met my midwife, Michelle, for coffee to process and talk. I really struggled here. I didn’t want to decide the next step because I didn’t want it to be real. It was advised to me that because of my recent…

  • In Limbo

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    Do you remember skating at the roller rink as a kid?  Across the loud speaker the DJ would announce “Annnnnnnd now everyone it’s time to join in the center of the floor for limmmmmmmmmbooooooooo!” Half the floor would clear and the other half of us would circle around to get…

  • 7 Ways to Share Loss

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    7 ways to tell the world your baby died I know the title of this blog post may seem a bit morbid. But to be honest, when we lost Porter this was on my mind and he was more than just a miscarriage to me. He DIED inside my womb…

  • Aftershock of Miscarriage

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    “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.” Psalm 3:5 Can’t breathe. Can’t move.  Can’t talk. My heart is pounding in my ears. Can’t breathe.  Can’t move. Can’t talk. Tears are streaming down my face. “I want to die.”  That is the…

  • Porter Part 3: I Knew From the Beginning

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    “For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the…

  • Porter Part 2: You Left a Mark

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    “I’ve picked you. I haven’t dropped you. Don’t panic. I’m with you. There’s no need to fear for I’m your God. I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you stead, keep a firm grip on you.” – Isaiah 41:9-10 from The Message We left off with a celebration. Our…

  • Porter Part 1: It was you all along

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    “For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven. A time to be born and a time to die. A time to plant and a time to harvest.” Ecclesiastes 3:1–2 Monday, June 24th, 2019 was when my life changed. But to be honest, I knew deep down…